


Falling Apart

by SparkleInTheSun



Category: iCarly
Genre: Angst, Tragedy
Language: English
Status: Completed
Published: 2009-10-16
Updated: 2009-10-16
Packaged: 2013-09-22 11:25:04
Rating: T
Chapters: 1
Words: 582
Publisher: www.fanfiction.net
Story URL: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5447187/1/
Author URL: http://www.fanfiction.net/u/1427141/SparkleInTheSun
Summary: Ignore the way her body shakes, pretend you don't see the tears running down her pale face. Look away from her when you see the protuding bones, try and act like you don't see any of it. Try and act like you don't love her; even if it's what she needs.





	Falling Apart

**Disclaimer: Surprisingly, I don't own anything**

**A/N: Review! I can't believe this took me over twenty hours to do, I am so weird. **

**This is a VERY long free verse. **

**So yeah, feel free to tell me how terrible it is. **

**~ Falling Apart ~ **

_(Stupidgirl)_

The voice **p o u n d s **in her head,

_Echoing. Echoing. Echoing. _

She winces a little; wishing it would stop.

_(Fatfatfatfat) _

She's standing in front of the **mirror, **

_Shaking. Crying. Wishing._

**Why can't I be just like her?**

Her head shakes,

_maybehewillneverloveher_

Her heart thumps,

**Can you hear it?**

(_takeagoodlookatyourself) _

The **mirror;** _it lies._

But she doesn't know that.

The mirror tells lies and says I'm **u g l y**

(_willyourememberme?)_

Ugly. Fat. Stupid. Bully.

Worthless, silly _little girl._

Tears are falling, sobs can be _heard._

Blonde locks **fall **to the ground,

_Scissors _roughly hacking at the once _long _hair.

Tears **d r o p** onto the hard floor,

A _smile _plays on her delicate lips.

_(skeletonskeletonskeleton)_

Her eyes close, **b l o o d **drips down,

mixing with the tears.

_I love you, why can't you love me too?_

She lifts up her top,

hand on her stomach.

_Hipbone. _Check. _Ribs. _Check. _Collarbone. _Check.

_Do you love me yet?_

She puts her hand on her chest,

Is her heart still beating?

A nod of the head, more tears.

_Yes it is. _

_Onetwothreefourfive_

Take a deep breath.

_Sixseveneightnineten_

Pretend you **e n j o y **being alive.

Everyday is a fight

It just keeps getting harder.

_When will it all end?_

**When will she be okay?**

**DO IT SAMANTHA!**

**DO IT NOW!**

She listens to the voice,

_never _being able to believe it was in her head.

**GO SAMANTHA! **

Her head nods as she wipes the **t e a r s **away.

The porcelain bowl in front of her;

so beautiful to her; so plain.

**Knees **_hit _the floor

Tears _drip _into the bowl.

She lets her head drop almost shamefully

**DOITDOITNOW**

_herhandsliftup_

**the tears finally stop**

and then the vicious cycle _continues_

**oncetwicethreetimes**

**MOREMOREMOREMORE**

The voice is screaming now,

and she knows that she can do **b e t t e r **

**WORKHARDERWORKHARDER**

She finally stumbles up,

catching her reflection in the mirror.

She doesn't know the girl in the mirror,

nobody does _anymore. _

**Sam? **_Sam who?_

It's Samantha now.

**Friends? **What are they?

_She doesn't need anyone; she doesn't want anyone. _

Shakingsweatingcrying

_it's all normal_

**bloodtearsvomit**

_it's nothing to worry about._

**DON'TLOOKATHER**

_Ignore her walking past you._

Forget about the girl she used to be;

You can't love her anymore; **forget about it Freddie. **

**NO! DON'T LOOK INTO HER EYES.**

Ignore the sadness in them,

**pretend **that she is fine.

Carry on like it's normal, _Freddie._

_(seethoseshakinghands?)_

Yeah? **Ignore them.**

_(seethosetearsrunningdownherface?)_

Yeah? **Pretend you don't. **

_(whataboutthevomitinherhair?)_

**NO! **_She doesn't want to be found out._

(_andthebloodonhertop?)_

**NO! **_She likes to make believe that she's invisible._

Bones! _Skin and bones._

**No, Freddie. **She just wanted you to _l o v e _her.

It's too late now.

_She's fading. _Falling. **Gone.**

_(ILOVEYOU) _

It's too late now.

_(IALWAYSLOVEDYOU)_

Should have told her **sooner.**

_Dreamsfadeintoone_

**she's gone.**

You never got that chance

_and now it's over. _

Maybe he should have **s-c-r-e-a-m-e-d **it out;

**I LOVE YOU SAMANTHA PUCKETT **

Maybe... _just maybe;_

he could have saved her.


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